Author: D Jay Collins

  • The Baker’s Dozen

    The Baker’s Dozen

    Among the mosaic of faded faces of small children with phone numbers on tiny strips of paper like jagged teeth was a flyer for “Revival Sundays!” It was an odd sentiment, here, in this place where hope had come to die. This waystation for the pleas and cries of parents on their knees in anguish. This place where they affixed copies of freshly created memes with captions that held no humor whatsoever. Jokes like “Have you seen me?”, “Missing since Monday” or “Please call with any information!”
    The bold posting was the work of the local storefront pastor of the building on the corner that used to be Uncle Lou’s old rib shack. On hot Sundays, if the windows were open in the back and someone came thru the front door, you could swear you could still smell a hot link / rib tip combo with mild sauce like Uncle use to make. This would at least make the service a bit more palatable as lately the crowds have been thinning out, if you could even call them crowds anymore. There was a time not too long ago when hope was still breathing in the sermons that were preached here. Parents of those freshly printed pages were still clinging to pews, sweating into their bibles and praying like the answers would come if they got the words just right.
    But just as the candles at the shrine would no longer hold a flame, the petals on the bouquets had fallen and the moisture on the stuffed animals were no longer fresh tears but better left unsaid, these mothers and fathers had since found other avenues of coping with their grief. Some were in regular counseling or met in groups with bad coffee and leftover pastries from other functions held earlier in the day or the week. Some have become just become regulars on a nearby barstool. One father, a single parent after losing most of his mind when his wife lost her battle a year ago, decided to put what was left of his brain on the kitchen wall.
    Alas, there was no candle lit for him at the site, no flowers left behind, or any tears shed. Other than the few instances of “Did you hear what happened to that guy?”, the only connection to him in this sacred place is the jagged-tooth page not far from the one he posted himself. Except this one says things like “2BR 1BA”, “Heat Included”, and “Freshly Painted Kitchen”.
    The local constables have long since stopped asking questions. There was even an unmarked car of suits and sunglasses that canvassed the area at one time giving out business cards with callback numbers. But they haven’t been seen in quite a while, unless you count that one time at the motel with that guy with the accent that was staying a few days too long. But that didn’t have anything to do with the kids.
    All in all, it’s pretty quiet. I imagine with kids running around doing things that kids do like riding bikes, skateboards and the occasional shouting match to solve some urgent kid issue, it would be noisier. But I hate to say it this way, it’s been dead.
    I don’t have any kids of my own and I tend to keep to myself as a writer. And generally, if I want background noise to get into a good flow, I turn on one of those stations on Spotify like “Deep Focus” in order to relax and tip tap out the words on the page. But it just seems wrong here, like something or I guess several someone’s are missing, presumed dead.
    I haven’t lived here long. I usually try not to stay in any place for an extended period of time. It helps not to get to know too many people and none of them too well. It’s just easier when it’s time to move on and not have to lie about keeping in touch.
    But when I heard about the incident, I was curious like everyone else at the time to find out more information about what happened. It was only on that one week nationally, but like any news cycle, as soon as a new tweet came out that was it.
    Local papers tried to keep the story going, but what can you do today with the attention span of our society. A couple of good reporters spoke to all the principle characters, wrote about it from the perspective of the detectives lost for clues and of course, the emotional tugs about the parents. One piece even covered the former resident of this apartment, which is how I got in so quick and cheap.
    I don’t usually deal with non-fiction stories, unless you count the one that started my career. I turned my mid-life crisis recounting my life and the regrets I gathered along the way into a three-book deal with Random. But there’s only so much you can get from that grape after you’ve pretty much finished the bottle.
    So, I dove into my mind and came up with a Jack Russell terrier named Rainbow that didn’t really belong to anyone but always seemed to show up when some child was in need. She would be hugged, fed some great treat of thanks and even put up for a while by some family grateful for her help.
    But like any good lone hero, she moved on shortly after so as not to get too attached to any one place or people. Plus, there was bound to be someone else in need and how can you show up just in the nick of time if you’re lying around getting belly rubs and chew toys?
    Take the case of the kid who didn’t quite fit in with the local boys in the neighborhood. He was what we used to call “book smart” or “nerd” for short. I mean, it wasn’t his fault. You deal with the brain you’re given and his spent most days devouring every book in the house. His single mom was the local librarian, so there was almost no shortage of texts available including reference books. But his deceased father was a preacher, so the bible was his first book and he practiced sermons of his own.
    As a writer, I like reading as much as the next author, but I stop the bus way short of peer-reviewed journals and I’m an avowed heathen. But again, to each his own. You must respect the kid a bit, too. Because as funding for libraries has decreased, so had his mother’s hours and her health. So, he took it upon himself to start a bike delivery service for the local pizza joint. Pizza is always appreciated, especially fresh from the oven and the kid was quick with the bike so the tips were nice.
    Unfortunately, the headphones he invested in to keep up with reading thru audiobooks were a bit too good at noise-canceling and didn’t allow him to hear the driver screeching to a halt until the last moment. Fortunately, Rainbow appeared in front of him making him swerve but also giving her the brunt of the hit. Lucky for both, it was a Prius and though she was a bit roughed up, there were no broken bones. So, he lifted her into his basket and gave her a ride home.
    It didn’t take long before Rainbow was eating a few slices of leftover pizza and feeling well enough to stand on her own four feet. She didn’t disappear immediately either as the kid had arranged a nice comfy spot in the garage for her. The kid was gracious with the leftovers and the garage had more than enough space to move around as well as a gap at the bottom of the door which allowed Rainbow to squeeze thru at will.
    At one point, the kid had left the door inside open for a bit and Rainbow would visit with the mom which put a rare smile on everyone’s face. Rainbow didn’t make much noise unless it was purposeful usually responding to something said about her or to her. And, making a mess indoors was not becoming of a lady of Rainbow’s stature, so the grassy area just outside the garage was perfectly fine.
    However, as trips to the hospital for the mom became more frequent and the kid spending more time away from the house was a regular thing, Rainbow one day didn’t return and that was the end of that chapter in that particular story.
    But back to our current mystery, it’s not like they all disappeared at once. But, then again, it didn’t take a long time either. During a summer in the city a couple of years back, one then two and then as the weeks went by thirteen children in all, a baker’s dozen. There are no witnesses. No one has come forward to say they saw a strange van or man or anybody out of the ordinary in the area.
    I talked to the parents or should I say tried to talk to most of the parents. That is a hard subject to broach. A few were used to people bringing it up and trying to console them. I guess for them it felt good to talk about their kids because it lent hope to the issue, as if they may still be found. But there were just as many that would snap at the very mention of them. The “How dare you?!” of responses “…after all I’ve been through!”
    So, I tried to leave them be and spoke to some cops on the beat. According to them, the kids didn’t all have the same pattern as far as coming home from school, running to the store or just playing outside in the street. All thirteen left the house at various times of day, going to different places or doing different things but the one thing they had in common is they didn’t come home.
    The only thing that really linked them together is that they were all around the same age, old enough to be trusted to be on their own but young enough that when they didn’t show up after a while, there was reason to be concerned. Also, the bad thing about this neighborhood is it’s not a wealthy area. There are mostly poor people and maybe a few bohemian young people looking for cheaper rent.
    But, it’s also not a bad area. There are no drug houses, no bums on the corner and no gang activity. These people have been going about their lives in the most working-class way for years. The only thing that even got any attention before the missing kids was Uncle Lou’s Rib Shack. People would drive here from around the city and some would make a special trip when they came to town.
    That’s really the main reason the kids got the national press that it did because the media would start the story by mentioning that it was happening in Uncle Lou’s neighborhood. I’ve never had the pleasure of his trying his famous lip-smacking ribs because the place closed about a year ago after Uncle Lou passed on in his sleep. Although they say he was losing it towards the end because the ribs didn’t taste quite the same.
    Uncle Lou didn’t have any kids to speak of as far as anyone knew. If he did, they didn’t show up for the funeral which was paid for by some local celebrity who had his picture on the wall of the joint for years. It was a pretty big procession for this neighborhood. The mayor and a few other politicians made their way to the front of the pews, but I suspect that was more for them than for him.
    The restaurant was made from Uncle Lou’s actual house on the corner which gave it a great location for him. But, having been a rib shack for some thirty plus years, no one was interested in trying to buy it to live in or start any other type of business. So, a former resident turned pastor heard about the passing of Uncle Lou and got a sweetheart deal from the city to turn it into a church.
    He didn’t mind the smell because he said it reminded him of his childhood and if it got people to stop by for a sermon or two then more’s the better. The only issue he had with the building was that it still had a coal furnace, which was connected to a chute on the side of the building with a driveway so the trucks could send the coal down the chute.
    Uncle Lou had the furnace customized so he could use it with coal and his combination of hickory and other woods to double as a smoker for his meats. Of course, for the business, he ran the furnace all year long, but it had been off since he died. The pastor was even saying that he’s looking forward to firing it up this winter to give the community back some of the nostalgia of that smell.
    The detectives and FBI had a moment of pause when it came to the pastor because it turns out he had a sealed file from his youth, something about a sexual assault. But it was over 25 years ago and he hadn’t moved to the area until after the kids and Uncle Lou had gone. From all accounts, he hasn’t had any trouble as an adult and went into the ministry following his father’s footsteps.
    There was one theory that didn’t pan out mainly because no bodies have been found. A murder of a child in a nearby woods started law enforcement to feel like maybe it had a lead, but the suspect was in jail last year and there was no further evidence connecting him to any of the kids.
    I had signed a lease on the poor father’s apartment for six months thinking that I could use the time to start a new book even if I didn’t find anything interesting to this story. But damned if I can’t get it out of my mind. There has got to be something here, I tell myself. Which is probably the same thing that keeps every cop or parent that tries to sleep or saddles up to the bar to try to forget.
    I think at that moment, not a bad idea. I could use a drink. There’s a bar down the street from my apartment around the block from old Uncle Lou’s. As I walk there, I can see the neon sign just above the trees over the backyard fences of the houses. When I get to Lou’s (now House of the Holy something or other), I notice that the driveway leads all the way thru to the alley and there is a vacant lot on the other side. Laziness kicks in and I walk thru alongside a very tall hedge that separates the church from the houses and parts to let the trucks out to the alley.
    As I pass along the building, I also notice the famous coal chute that must have provided the fuel that fed this neighborhood for a few decades. I notice it’s got a latch but not really a lock. But I think to myself, who wants to break into a church. And even when it was a restaurant, Uncle Lou had that furnace going so often that I doubt anyone would choose to voluntarily slide into a hot furnace.
    As I perch onto a stool, the bartender nods a look of recognition. Hey, I’m a writer. That makes me a regular at any number of bars from here to there and in-between. Placing my Jack neat in front of me, he asks if I’ve had any progress on my story. And while he goes to get my beer chaser, I reply that I was thinking that maybe I would write something about Old Uncle Lou and his legendary rib shack.
    Right after I get the words out of my mouth, the guy next to me makes a loud grunt and visibly rolls his eyes my way. I don’t get it, but the bartender says, “Don’t mind him. He’s just mad that Uncle Lou died with his money in his pocket.” I’m thinking ok, I’ll bite. Should be interesting enough to get me through a couple of rounds.
    So, I ask him about his beef with the old owner. Turns out this guy was his meat supplier and Uncle Lou owed on his account “Big Time” when he died. But since everyone loved the old guy and he had been such an institution, he let Lou slide a lot with promises that things are turning around and, “I’ll get ya’ next week. I swear!”
    Ok, he’s got my sympathy, so I buy his next round. Out of curiosity, I ask how much it could have really been if he was only behind by a few weeks. He replies that he didn’t let it get too far out of hand before he had to cut off Lou’s supply, but that when he did Lou went out and got a new supplier instead of paying what he owed to him.
    “I supplied Lou for almost twenty years and let him slide time after time! And that’s how he treats me by stabbing me in the back with some other company?!” Wow, I say. That is worthy of being a bit upset. But then I ask him what other supplier would take Lou’s business if he did him so wrong? There can’t be that many companies servicing the area, right?
    He replies that he doesn’t know who Lou was using, but that it must be some small-time place because none of the other companies would touch him. He also added, “It serves him right because people stopped going as much when they found out the ribs didn’t taste as good as they did when he bought from me!”
    I don’t know if there was an itch in the back of my mind or just my writer’s sick mind at play, but I asked, “when exactly did you cut Lou off?” That was when he replied, “About a few months before he died two summers back.”
    I looked at the bartender. I asked for another Jack but make it a double. Because I knew that I had a phone call to make, and if it turned out to be what I thought, I would need a little liquid courage to get through it.
    I looked through the cards I had gathered in my time, in this place where I was lucky enough to have never been. This place where tragedy and sadness and grief hung around in the air like a bad smell. A sweet sickening smell that wafted from the corner of the block. The corner that now had a building with a cross on top like an oversized mausoleum. Because that’s what it really was, right? If I’m right and I hope I’m not right but then that would make me crazy for thinking it in the first place!
    I paid my tab and the meat guy’s, too. Because he gave me a story, but who the hell wants this story. Who wants to have their name even associated with the mere mention of it? But I must make this call. I dial the number and talk to the service operator and ask her to have the agent call me right back immediately. I don’t care if you have to wake him up because he is going to have to wake up a lot of people. First, a judge then a local detective, then maybe a few cops and medical technicians and last of all, a pastor.
    We all gather at the door of the church. The pastor has been handed the requisite paper with the judge’s signature attached as he is moved to the side with the strangest look on his face. Don’t worry, pastor. You’re not the only one who thinks this is crazy. But as I follow the agent to the basement, to the customized furnace used as a smoker for the old rib shack. I notice something I suspected would be true. The chute is not attached to the furnace. It opens at the top and is attached to a slide that ends just above the floor, big enough for a child to slide down.

  • Waiting on the message…

    The beginning of Hip-Hop for me was listening to a pre-release of The Sugarhill Gang’s Rapper’s Delight because my step-father was a DJ. I’m from the Chi but was living in Vicksburg, MS for a year, and when I moved back, I knew the song word for word. I got a lil’ street-cred for that. But at 56 now, I can also confess to watching the Source Awards some years ago and asking myself, “Who da fuck is Two-Chains?”

    That’s because by the time the East Coast/West Coast feud had started and then claimed the lives of the top two rappers of each, I had soured on the direction of the genre. Sure, some jams couldn’t be denied for their infectious nature but the messages…most of them at the time, were not positive enough for me. That’s not to say that I didn’t appreciate some of the stories being conveyed, but it wasn’t my cup of tea.

    So, like now, I reminisced on the early days, and, for me, Rakim was and is still Tha God. No, not that I believe in any gods. But looks at this man’s face. There is pain there. There is knowing there. And, in such, there is knowledge there. I know that look. I feel that look on a day to day basis since I’ve been able to realize what pain was and internalize it.

    Rakim took that pain and that wisdom from an early age and translated it to the masses. That…was and is his power. It’s what, for me and many others, keeps him in our top 5…if not the one. When he speaks…We listen. He picked up where Martin and Malcolm couldn’t and he put it to Eric B’s cuts. Or, Vice Versa.

    The article I got this pic from says he is releasing a solo album on July 26, 2024. I can’t wait.

  • A Purple Piece

    There is an expression…”My heart is full”. Many think they are using this in the right way. I think it is sad, selfish, and true of someone who hasn’t lived long enough or known true love, pain, or loss.

    When you Love someone, you know it because it feels like they take a part of you when they leave. And, you feel like you’re whole again when they are near.

    When you Lose someone you Loved, you can never get that piece of yourself back. You can grieve and mourn and eventually, that hole will heal but it will never be replaced. You go on through life knowing that a part of you is missing, and every now and then, it aches.

    Same as when someone hurts you. I don’t mean physically, although it can hurt just as bad. But when someone you Love causes you pain, real Pain, it feels like they reached in and took a piece of your heart while it’s beating…and they did. You can forgive, but you will never forget because that piece of you they took stays with them as a reminder. Now, whenever you see them, hear their name, or think of them…that piece of you calls out to you no matter how far away.

    Even people you have never met before can take a piece of you if you let them. Religious people, cultists, and fanatics give a part of themselves willingly to the subject of their faith or cause. Celebrities are also recipients of pieces of multitudes of people. Fame provides, whether you want it or not.

    I’m guilty of giving several pieces to various people I’ve known along the way. Some I regret and of others, I’m proud. But there are these pieces that belong to a few I have never met, and yet, they have them all the same.

    One of my early childhood crushes was Minnie Riperton, as I’m sure I’m not alone. But when she passed from cancer, I could feel a piece of me go with her. I’d known personal loss and love, even at that young age, but it was the first time someone I’d never met was responsible.

    Malcolm, Martin, and Medgar also have pieces that defy space and time, often transporting me to the ballroom, balcony, and block making me feel pain repeatedly.

    Marvin received one as soon as his father pulled that trigger, although we all thought it was an April Fool’s joke…a sick one, not at all funny, but we tried to laugh all the same. Hoping it could not be true, but the pain told us it was so very real.

    So, today, June 7th…when we are celebrating your birthday Around The World. A day when there should be Joy in Repetition. I am instantly transported back to The Time when there was an April Snow, an Elevator was bringing me down, and A Purple Piece of me was crying again, For You.

  • Sunrise

    Most times I am awake when that dawn breaks and I know that another day has started…

    But too many times I am only awake because I have broken whatever promise I made.

    Promises like “I will do better” or “I will work out” or “I won’t drink”…

    But Life often has other plans like the God that they say laughs at you for that.

    What happens in your day is not tantamount to your desires…

    So try as hard as you might, Life just keeps on Life-ing.

    Sometimes Life will line up with your plans like a lucky parlay…

    But more often than not the House always wins and you Lose.

    So, you have to decide for yourself, do I double down or go all in…

    But most of us are too scared to lose it all and we fold, short-stacked.

    If we are patient, years may go by while we try to wait for the right moment…

    But most times, we are just stretching out the inevitable.

    Some of us go all-in and figure that win or lose, at least we tried…

    Most of us wait for our shot that never seems to come.

    I have played for so long that I feel I am at the point of no return…

    And it haunts me that I no longer care if I win.

    But feelings can betray you as you might miss the moment…

    Where the sun comes up, the clouds have passed, and the day is bright.

    At this point, all I have is a chip and a chair…

    And I just hope that’s enough.

  • CRT Hypocrisy

    Why blame CRT
    For teaching Black History
    When most are home-schooled?

  • Decisive Meeting

    “A Mr. Craig to see you, sir.”
    “That’s just fine, Ms. Chase. Send him right in.”
    “He will see you now, sir. Right this way.”
    As the very tall and slender beauty stood up, I could see she was older than I thought but her great looks made any judgment of just how much almost impossible to tell. She was impeccably dressed and save for a heart-shaped locket, she wasn’t wearing any jewelry.
    “That’s a nice locket”, I said.
    “Thank you. I wish I could say it was unique”, as she gave me a weary grin and ushered me through the door.
    The office was quite large and ornate as I expected. But what I wasn’t prepared for were the ceiling to floor windows that created a half-circle around the room looking out on the wastelands below. There were two lounge chairs in front of a very stately-looking desk, the requisite bookshelves adorning the walls on both sides, and a large broad-shouldered man standing behind the desk backward as he looked out on the horizon.
    “Beautiful, isn’t it?”
    “Pardon me?”
    I heard what he said, but I didn’t quite understand why he said it.
    “The view. It’s like a blank canvas just waiting for an artist to start creating a masterpiece.”
    “If you say so, sir”, as I slid into one of the most comfortable chairs I’ve ever sat in before.
    “Do you know why you’re here, son?”
    “Sir, I don’t even know where I am.”
    “Don’t you?”, he remarked as he tilted his head slightly in my direction but not enough to give me a full profile of his face. “What’s the last thing you remember?”
    “A bright light.”
    No, son. What do you remember before that?”, he insisted.
    I thought hard for a moment. There was a searing pain to go along with that light, but only for a quick second. Thinking back to what happened before evoked images of large metal containers…and the ocean! At least, I’m pretty sure it was the ocean because there were very large ships moving along the water with dozens of those containers on them. A dock, that’s where and I had a clipboard in my hand.
    “I was working on a dock?”
    “That’s right, my boy!”, he said as he placed his thumbs under his suspenders as if he were actually proud of what I just said.
    “So, I was a dockworker?”
    At this point, he turned to face me. I should have been afraid of what I was seeing, of the face that was standing not five feet in front of me. But the smile that was carved into the bust of this monstrosity was so soothing as it beamed at me like I was a favored child, gave me a sense of calm I hadn’t felt.
    “Son, saying you were just a dockworker is like saying Gacy was just a clown!”, as he bellowed this horrifically loud laugh that shook the windows. “My boy, what you pulled off on that dock is nothing short of magical!”
    As he spoke, I began to remember small flashes of moments in my brain. But to my chagrin, it was not necessary because the windows were now filled with videos of me on the docks.
    “Take a look at this! Here you are smuggling in a shipment of pure heroin, over here it’s refugees with a dozen terrorists thrown in for good measure, and here you are signing off on a shipment of young boys and girls bound for destinations unknown! Son, while working on that dock as ‘just a dockworker’, you single-handedly did more in one week than most evil bastards would ever do in a lifetime! I loved it!”
    “Well, if I did such a great job, then how did I get here?”
    Just then the windows went back to showing the ground below us spanning out as far as the eye could see with devastation and smoldering buildings that showed not one bit of life anywhere along the way.
    “Bad luck, son. I mean, sooner or later you had to know it was going to come back to bite you in the ass! I mean, how could you have known that the last container you would ever sign for was filled with dirty bombs? Ironically, it was them terrorists you brought in that was supposed to get ‘em. But when that crane cable snapped…”
    “So, I died?”
    “Son, you didn’t just die. You set off World War 3! When that dock went up in smoke with most of San Francisco with it, your President bombed the Arabs that were backed by the Russians, who were backed by the Chinese, and HOO BOY! We had a party!”
    Looking out now on the view, I could only imagine the millions that were dead because of me.
    At this point, I just bowed my head into my hands. “So, what now?”
    “What now?! Well, Hell! I want you to come work for me! But all official-like this time. Got your contract right there in front of you. It’s pretty straightforward language. No need for a lawyer, but I got plenty of ‘em I could refer to you if you like?”
    “Work for you? What do you want me to do?”
    “I want you to be one of my top Account Managers! I mean, if anyone can influence a few wayward souls on the easier path to take, it’d be you! Now all you have to do is place your right thumb down on that tiny little needle there on the desk. You gon’ feel a small piece of pain, but just for a sec. Hell, you’ve felt worse. Am I right?! Then, just press that thumb down on the bottom of that piece of paper and you and I will have a deal!”
    “Do I have a choice?”, I asked already knowing that I wasn’t going to like the answer.
    “Son, everybody has a choice. You chose many times to look the other way and line your pockets. All I’m asking you now is to choose to lead more my way or you could choose to spend the rest of your time with me regretting the choice you make now. What’s it going to be?”
    Of course, I didn’t take too long to make up my mind. Better them than me, right? As I placed my thumb down on the pin, a stream of blood pooled into the silver receptacle attached to it. I then pressed my thumb onto the bottom of the long document in front of me that I was very sure was not in my favor in the long run.
    Just then, he walked over and shook my hand.
    “I’m proud of you, boy. And here, just as a token of my appreciation, I want you to have this to commemorate this occasion.”
    As he reached down to the desk, he picked up the silver receptacle that I had just impaled my digit upon to seal this deal. He clasped it within his hands and as he opened them, there was an exact duplicate of the object that received a compliment for Ms. Chase. A silver heart-shaped locket.

  • Primum non nocere

    Primum non nocere

    That’s the first principle of the Hippocratic oath better known as “First, do no harm”.

    Now, most of the people I’m referring to in this post are not doctors, so they wouldn’t be subjected to the terms of this sacred tradition. But, almost all of them took another oath to “support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic” and it’s this one that they failed at miserably and, dare I say, criminally in some cases.

    Loathe as I am to even say his name, it was clear before the election Trump was unfit to serve in office. But there was this push on the right to elect him to be their Manchurian Candidate, someone they can use to do their evil bidding. Unfortunately for them, he showed who he really was so much that they might as well have called him the Mandalorian Candidate.

    Unfortunately for us, Life began to imitate Art on a constant basis throughout his Presidency even from the start. It seemed to be the newest reality show set at the White House with real-world consequences. One of the first examples of this was the ousting of a current staffer and former reality show “star”, Omarosa. She, of course, wrote her version of how dysfunctional the West Wing was and how she tried to do what she could to help stop the worst from happening.

    Foreshadowing, an indication of something that will happen in the future, often used as a literary device to hint at or allude to future plot developments.

    Oh, it’s a literary device, all right, because I’ve lost count of how many staffers, reporters, and confidantes have published books now spilling all the tea of how crazy this MF was and why they only stuck around because the next person might help Mayor McOrange to accomplish his evil plans. No accountability.

    “But, we have recordings of statements you made where you clearly show your support for the President…”

    “Yes, but if you paid attention, you can clearly see me winking and when the camera pans to the side, you can see my fingers crossed behind my back!”

    They want us to think this was Weekend At Bernie’s (Sorry, Sen. Sanders) where they just carried a harmless body around that was not a threat to anyone, except that time he was spreading disease from his rotting carcass. Or, at the most, they would like you to imagine the movie Dave, where the lead character is an entertainer and puppet that they were only using to get their Ring-wing agenda passed without anyone getting hurt.

    But, we all know it was not that. Instead, it was that aptly named Enemy of the State with people in front of the cameras and behind the scenes actively engaging in bald-faced lies, grift on a worldwide scale, domestic terrorism, and treason, in order to get what they wanted no matter who they hurt or killed. And spoiler alert…a lot of people died at the end. Except for Will Smith, who didn’t even hit anyone.

    The phrase “25th Amendment” keeps coming up but none of these people ever thought seriously of using it because that would mean fucking up the party for everyone. You know, like Kavanaugh’s friend that jumped on the bed knocking all three to the floor so the almost raped victim could get away.

    No, they are all trying to get rich while assuring us that they did all they could at the time. But the whole point of the 25th is to remove a threat to the office and the country before things get too far. Someone, preferably many of them, has to step up and honor that oath to defend “the Constitution of the United States”, i.e. US!

    Us, We, Them…however, you cut it, when you raise that right hand and say those words, you are making a vow to stand up to the bully, to give up the position you hold to bring truth to the light, and to sacrifice yourself for the greater good. It does us no good to hear after the fact that things almost got way out of hand. It does not serve the country to know that the man who has changed the course of the Supreme Court for a generation or two wanted to shoot innocent citizens because they were exercising their 1st amendment right to protest him.

    These words may be just that…and they most likely won’t be seen by anyone involved, let alone my own friends. But, I felt compelled to write them because I often feel the need to speak out, which has gotten me ousted, fired, and uninvited to more than a few places.

    But I never took a vow. I never promised anything. And if I ever finish my book, it won’t have any revelations of any crimes that I could have stopped.

  • GI Jane 2

    GI Jane 2

    Jada “wants to be a superwoman
    But is that really in her head
    But I just want to live each day
    To love her for what she is”

    Apparently, Jada is suffering from alopecia. Hair loss. But as a casual observer, I will say that she looks amazing. I can only assume that her family, her husband, and her community is supportive of her.

    Jada “wants to be another movie star
    But is that really in her mind
    And all the things she wants to be
    She needs to leave behind.”

    Jada is very good at certain roles but Viola Davis, she is not. There are certain roles she will never get nor should she. But Chris Rock joking that she could be GI Jane 2, a character that is strong, determined, smart, and fearless in her pursuit to show the world that she will not be denied her place in it because she is presently bald…was a compliment.

    “But, very well, I believe I know you-very well
    Wish that you knew me too-very well
    And I think I can deal with everything going through your head
    Very well, and I think I can face-very well
    Wish that you knew me too-very well
    And I think I can cope with everything going through your head.”

    Jada latched on to a star, Will Smith, and has benefitted from the partnership. So much so that she has access, status, and clout that I dare say “Woo” would never have made on her own.

    Jada “wants to be a superwoman
    And try to boss the bull around
    But does she really think that she will get by with a dream.”

    Jada has had Will by the short and curlies since the jump, and at every turn, it seems, she has been in control of the relationship. So much so, that her “entanglement” was dealt with in a very public way to Will’s detriment.

    “My woman want to be a superwoman
    And I just had to say good-bye
    Because I can’t spend all my hours start to cry.”

    Will went thru a period of self-reflection that for a moment had rumors of them breaking up. But I can only infer that when it came down to it, she, he, they decided to stick it out and make it work.

    “But, very well, I believe I know you
    Very well wish that you knew me too
    Very well, and I think I can deal with everything going through your head
    Very well, think that I know you too
    Very well, wish you knew me like I know you
    Very well, but I think I can deal with everything going through your head
    Your filthy head”

    The shame, embarrassment, and emasculation that that brother had to endure…and probably still does to this day has obviously not been dealt with in his mind.

    “Very well, dum dum da, dum dum da
    Very well, wish you knew me too
    Very well, and I wish I could think of everything going through your head
    Very well, dum dum da, dum da, dum da dum dum da, dum da, very well
    And I think I can deal with everything going through your head.”

    She has her “Red Table Talk” where she has been able to talk openly about what’s going on with her, her family, and has garnered a large following that has strongly come to her defense in this latest debacle.

    “When the summer came you were not around
    Now the summer’s gone and love cannot be found
    Where were you when I needed you-last winter, my love?
    When the winter came you went further south.”

    Where was Jada when Will needed her? Where was his community when he was going thru the feedback, memes, and jokes of her choice to pursue what she wanted without consideration of the damage it did to him and them?

    “Parting from love’s nest, leaving me in doubt
    Where are you when I need you, like right now?”

    Will initially laughed at the joke but immediately after got the signal that she was not amused and decided he needed to respond…for her, and now faces the consequences of his actions.

    “Our love is at an end
    But you say now you have changed
    But tomorrow will reflect love’s past.”

    There’s always been talk and speculation that Jada loved Pac and has never really been totally into Will other than what his talent does for her. I can only hope that Love finds a way to overcome. Otherwise, these two should part…for his sake, if not both before another violent event occurs.

    “When the winter came you were not around
    Through the bitter winds love could not be found
    Where were you when I needed you, last winter, my love?”

    I have been alone and lonely these past years wondering where is my muse, my queen, my Love? But if the many responses I have seen from women applauding the insecurity, the toxic masculinity, and the insanity that it took for that Black man to slap another Black man on live tv in front of billions just to prove his…worth?…to her? I’m ok with being alone.

    “La la la la la, la la la la la
    La la la la la, la la la la la”

    Lyrics by Stevie Wonder

  • Don’t Believe The Hype about Dave!

    Don’t Believe The Hype about Dave!

    The internet is blowing up with reports that Dave Chappelle is responsible for killing a plan for “affordable housing” in his hometown of Yellow Springs, OH. The headlines are written in a way that makes it seem that Dave does not want any “poor people” moving into his town and threatened to pull business projects of his own from the area.

    Even The Root, one of my favorite sites, is usually supportive of not only Us but the truth. They also published their own hit piece on Dave:

    Dave Chappelle Threatens To Pull Investments From Small City If Affordable Housing Project Goes Forward

    In their post, they include a passage that states “Oberer Homes and the village of Yellow Springs initially worked together to produce a plan that would include duplexes and affordable housing along with single-family homes in a 53-acre area.” (Rawls, M., The Root, 2/10/22)

    But what the writer doesn’t point out that can be found by clicking the link Dayton Daily News in the post is this memo:

    The above proposal shows in Black and White that 140 of its homes would start at $200k with only 1.75 acres to be “Donated Land for Affordable Housing”. However, while it stipulates it would fit “20-30 units”, a quick Google search points out “One acre (43,560 ft) is enough space to fit about five single-family homes, given that nothing but the land for the lots is included.” (HomeX.com)

    So, unless they are planning on building one large apartment complex with 20-30 units, that would backup the issues that Dave’s spokesperson, Carla Sims, pointed out in the New York Post:

    “Neither Dave nor his neighbors are against affordable housing, however, they are against the poorly vetted, cookie-cutter, sprawl-style development deal which has little regard for the community, culture and infrastructure of the Village,” Sims added.

    “The whole development deal, cloaked as an affordable housing plan, is anything but affordable. Three out of 143 lots would have been for ‘future’ affordable housing. The rest of the homes were to be priced between $250K and upwards of $600K. In Yellow Springs, and in many other places, that is not considered affordable housing. Instead, it’s an accelerant on the homogenization of Yellow Springs.” (NY Post)

    I know Dave has already been on the hot seat for other issues well-documented and not necessary for me to rehash here. But the number of outlets and the way most of them have jumped at the opportunity to cast him in negative light points to a hunger for anything anti-Chappelle. Check out just a few more:

    Dave Chappelle’s Latest Achievement: Helping Kill an Affordable Housing Development (Rolling Stone)

    Dave Chappelle spoke out against affordable housing plan in his community (CNN)

    Ohio village scraps plan with affordable housing after Dave Chappelle threatens to pull his businesses (NBCnews)

    Dave Chappelle Helps Block Ohio Town’s Affordable Housing Plan, Threatens to Pull His Investments (People.com)

    They’re coming for you, Dave. No joke.

  • Dreaming…

    Having gone to bed fairly early considering I don’t have to work tomorrow and after some vivid drinking-smoking-latenightfood dreams… I wake up.

    Peeking over at the semi-hidden clock and only seeing 2 00’s and the slight curvature of the bottom of the second, I wonder to myself… “Wow, is it 6 or did I sleep until 8 with no alarm set?!”

    As I feel a familiar push from within, I roll over to get up only to see that second number emerge as a taunting, but knowing 3:00.

    Shuffling into my slippers, I meander to the bathroom and assume the first position while peering down into the dark. Suddenly, almost like an Edgar Allan Poe story, I hear a voice from deep within say… “You thought you slept all thru the entire night?!! Bless your heart!”

    That was my bladder.